11:42pm…Yes, I should be in bed by now, BUT….
Being a Mommy of a 4 year old is tiring. I’m sure you’ll agree, after all, what Momma isn’t tired? Ever feel emotionally drained? Like not so much physically wiped out but just tired of the same.issues.over.and.over. The discipline, consistency of it, trying to ‘choose my battles,’ and the noise and energy level off the chart. Yeah, that about sums it up.
Any more, the only time for me to unwind is after the boy goes to bed. It’s nothing new but still, catching up on email and texts, thinking through details of tomorrow, getting into a good book, and sometimes writing, all eats into my sleep hours. Before I know it, it’ll be 6:30am and time to get up, gulp down some coffee and perhaps, if I’m fortunate, a slice of toasted bread with peanut butter to give me at least something in my stomach before the monster, errr, I mean child wakes up for a brand new day.
I’m not complaining, truly, I’m not. I just find it humorous that I’m still awake and yet I desperately need to be asleep so that I can conquer tomorrow’s challenges, that’s all. I wouldn’t change this time and these days with my boy for a thing. I’m grateful and blessed to be able to be at home with him. Grateful that my dear husband wants it that way, and works hard for it to remain this way. Thankful for the memories we’re making together and that I have a son who calls me “Mommy”. Taking time to drink in the days with him will always be a treasure. God has been good to grant me the desires of my heart.
I couldn’t ask for more….
As a Mom, do you ever feel that you have spiritual gifts that are not being utilized? Gifts that you once enjoyed employing, but now are not? I know I do. As a matter of fact, I’ve struggled with it over my short time of being a Mommy. Not that I am not loving being a Mom, but I miss having something that is mine. Something that I do. Something I contribute. I know, as I’m writing this, it sounds as if I’m contradicting myself, as being a Momma should be fulfilling enough.
I recently heard someone speak on this subject and it so inspired me! As a songwriter and singer, this person shared that after becoming a Mom, she feared that she could possibly lose her ability to do what she once loved doing–songwriting. She feared she might even forget her skill after having not used it. I found myself relating to every word she shared. No, I’m not a songwriter or singer, but I do have God-given gifts, as do we all.
Important to remember: there is a time and season for every thing under the sun (read Ecclesiastes). Sometimes our roles in life change for a period of time. That doesn’t mean we will lose our ability to write or lead or sing or whatever. What is encouraging is that it is in these different seasons of life that actually give our gifts color and depth. Our talents are refined, even broadened.
We can ask God to give us opportunities to utilize our gifts in all seasons of our life. If we aim to honor Him with our God-given gifts (James 1:17), how much more will He provide opportunities for their use? Seeking Him and His wisdom might just surprise you. He may have something just for you, just for this season that will blow your socks off….and inspire someone else.