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“Happy Mother’s Day!”

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These words used to bring tears to my eyes. Tears for a couple of reasons, actually. I had a wonderful, loving, godly, fun, best-friend kind of Mom for 23 years of my life. She was the nurturing type, full of mercy, peace, and grace. She poured into me, sacrificed in huge ways, and most importantly led me to Christ. God called her home at 47 years of age. For many years, I was conflicted with ‘why God did you take her from me when I loved her and needed her so much?’ and thoughts of being at peace knowing she was safely in the arms of her loving Jesus, free from pain. Sprinkle in the tormenting thoughts of ‘why does Jesus heal some, and yet others have to suffer, gaining their ultimate healing?‘ If I’m being honest, I still struggle with some of these emotions, and probably will until Jesus takes me home.

As time passed, after *marriage, I never thought I’d hear the words “Happy Mother’s Day!” I watched and celebrated my friends who were celebrating their pregnancies and subsequent births of their bundles of joy. While I was truly happy for them, I found it increasingly more difficult to hide my own feelings of desperately wanting to be a Mom and have a child of my own. Eventually, we found ourselves on the path to fertility treatment. It was a lonely, depressing world of disappointment upon disappointment; not to mention the thousands of dollars spent on a hope unrealized.

God had other plans for my husband and me. Unaware at the time, we faithfully prayed and trusted Him for direction and wisdom. The Lord kept opening our eyes to adoption. While it took me awhile to warm up to the idea, God slowly prepared me for a new journey. I have to admit, this path is not for the faint of heart. We went to training in and out-of-state, completed physical exams, psychiatric exams, interviews, background checks, counseling, mounds of paperwork, home visits, and created a book of pictures introducing our family to birth mothers who would then choose a prospective adoptive couple. As my husband jokingly says, “we did everything short of having a body cavity search”.

Nearly two years into our process of becoming a “waiting family” or “paper pregnant” as they call it, we found ourselves fighting disappointment when we still hadn’t been contacted by our agency that a birth mother had looked at our profile, wanting to meet us. It was then that God showed up in a big way! The Lord led us to our precious birth mother through some friends. Ironically we met with her for the first time near Mother’s Day. It was this initial meeting which led to accompanying her to doctor’s appointments, long chats over lunch, meeting her family and at long last, joining her in the delivery room as our baby boy was born! Truly, what at first appeared to us as our “Plan B” quickly turned into God’s “Plan A” for our family. We could not have asked for a more beautiful story had we written it ourselves. God was in every single detail.

I struggled trusting God that He would answer our prayers for a child of our own. The enemy hurled doubt left and right. The Lord, however, held our hands and affirmed us throughout our journey to our son even when our fears threatened to take over. The Lord continued to speak to us not only through our own prayers, but through others as well. We felt encouraged and edified, almost as if God was carrying us through til the very end. He was faithful and would not let go.

As my husband and I often tell our son, “God made us a family”. And, He did. Undeniably one of the most difficult holidays of the year for me, Mother’s Day, has now become one of the most joyous days of my life. God heard our cries for a child and He answered our prayers. God’s ways are often not our ways; His plans are not always our plans, and His timing is often not our timing. Know that He can be trusted with the longings of our heart. He is a good, good Father.

*marriage-another God story of how God brought my husband to me in His timing, not my own.

The Lord is righteous in all his ways and faithful in all he does. (Psalm 145:17, NIV)

So, my very dear friends, don’t get thrown off course. Every desirable and beneficial gift comes out of heaven. The gifts are rivers of light cascading down from the Father of Light. There is nothing deceitful in God, nothing two-faced, nothing fickle. He brought us to life using the true Word, showing us off as the crown of all his creatures. (James 1:17, MSG)

For great is your love, reaching to the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies. (Psalm 57:10, NIV)

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. (Matthew 7:7, NIV)

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,… (Ephesians 3:20)

If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there; if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath. (Psalm 34:18, MSG)

I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him.          (1 Samuel 1:27, NIV)

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11, NIV)

amazing faith

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I am always encouraged by others who testify to the greatness of our great God. However, there is something extra special, to me anyway, when I hear or read such a proclamation of God’s favor, grace, mercy and faithfulness from someone who is in the midst of a fiery trial.

While years ago, I found myself in the midst of a fiery trial that truly rocked my faith, when my own dear Mom was diagnosed with incurable cancer. Oh my, how I prayed and trusted God to be everything to our family that He promises in His Word. He was faithful to us in innumerable ways. My faith was soaring high and although challenged, it had proven to be unwavered. Yet again, years later, my faith was greatly put to the test as we suffered the heartbreak of infertility. I couldn’t conceive how God could give some a precious child when they didn’t even want  one, or they drowned or flushed or heaven knows what all else to rid themselves of the miracle they had just miraculously birthed. Once again, God proved Himself faithful and provided for us in an amazing way that only He could. He is faithful. His Word is true. His love is unfailing. He cares.

Currently though, I have a dear friend in the midst of probably the biggest battle of her own life, a battle for her health. Sparing her personal struggles, as it is her story to share, she is fearlessly and unashamedly testifying to God’s goodness in the midst of her very real struggle. While she could easily doubt God’s goodness, even curse Him for what is happening to her, she is faithfully trusting Him and sharing His great love with others. God is good. He’s truly good all the time, whether or not we can see it at the moment.  Choosing to see Him at work and joining Him on a blind journey is true “rubber-meets-the-road” kinda faith.

God doesn’t want us to waste our sorrows; rather encourage others with the comfort we have been given. For He is worthy of our love, our trust and our faith. He is the only One who will never leave or forsake us.

Want to be encouraged today as I have? Check out my friend’s blog, http://www.findingtheinspiring.com. To read her testimony I’ve written about, see her recent post, “My Mess and God’s Mercy”.

“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort,..” (2 Corinthians 1:3)

“who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.” (2 Corinthians 1:4)