11:42pm…Yes, I should be in bed by now, BUT….
Being a Mommy of a 4 year old is tiring. I’m sure you’ll agree, after all, what Momma isn’t tired? Ever feel emotionally drained? Like not so much physically wiped out but just tired of the same.issues.over.and.over. The discipline, consistency of it, trying to ‘choose my battles,’ and the noise and energy level off the chart. Yeah, that about sums it up.
Any more, the only time for me to unwind is after the boy goes to bed. It’s nothing new but still, catching up on email and texts, thinking through details of tomorrow, getting into a good book, and sometimes writing, all eats into my sleep hours. Before I know it, it’ll be 6:30am and time to get up, gulp down some coffee and perhaps, if I’m fortunate, a slice of toasted bread with peanut butter to give me at least something in my stomach before the monster, errr, I mean child wakes up for a brand new day.
I’m not complaining, truly, I’m not. I just find it humorous that I’m still awake and yet I desperately need to be asleep so that I can conquer tomorrow’s challenges, that’s all. I wouldn’t change this time and these days with my boy for a thing. I’m grateful and blessed to be able to be at home with him. Grateful that my dear husband wants it that way, and works hard for it to remain this way. Thankful for the memories we’re making together and that I have a son who calls me “Mommy”. Taking time to drink in the days with him will always be a treasure. God has been good to grant me the desires of my heart.
I couldn’t ask for more….